To my Unborn Baby:
I thought of you before you were conceived. I'm thinking of you as you are being formed in your mother's womb. My thoughts can't escape you just as you can't escape my thoughts. (1) As you are being formed, know that you are loved and cared for. One day you will breathe the air I breathe, be bathed in the sun I am bathed by, feel the moisture of rain on your skin, and all the other things I do. Most important of all, one day, I hope to show you to your true Father. The same Father that will Father your thoughts and imaginations in this world. You are not alone even in the womb. We are with you, always, to the end of time.
Entry: 11:25AM, 12/27/22
References:
(1) Psalm 139 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
(2) John 5:19 Then answered Jesus and said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, The Son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the Father do: for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the Son likewise.
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As I sit and listen to the Word (message from GRC, 1/15/23) and meditate on God's goodness I am thinking of my family. Thinking of the family of God. How it is full of peace, and love, and belonging. Filled with the power God's life. As we are awaiting your formation to be complete in the womb, little child, we entrust your life unto the Lord. That your life will be a testimony to God's goodness. That you will see God's love for you all the days of your life.
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1/27/22
Thinking of you, thinking of you, I'm still thinking of you.
Thinking of how it might be like in there inside your mother's womb. Is it comfy, is it warm, is it just right? You are around 10 weeks old. How amazing it is to think of that. In ~30 more weeks you will arrive. To be with us out here, breathing this air. Growing and aging as we do. I love you little child. I love that i get to talk to you in my heart. You're amazing before you've even arrived. I want to do everything i can for you. I know that God has everything in place for you. He's your dad. He'll love you and take care of you. Peace be still child.
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Dear Child,
As you grow closer to your grand entry into this world, i grew closer in my confident expectation and love of you being here with us. The day of your birth will be so exciting. You will manifest as your own being. With that, all the vulnerabilities that come with life here in this world. Let it first be known that I am passionately in love with you, your mom, and myself. This passion came from above and I desire for this passion to pass on to you. To know you are loved is valuable to me. God's love for you is in me, and will be in you too if you let it. It will invigorate your soul. It will animate your being. It will grant you the confidence of eternal life. That's the best thing I can show you. That your life in eternity is secure with God. I want the best for you already and i haven't even met you yet. Perhaps this is what it means to be a Father. To want to give your offspring the world. Well, eternal life is better than this world. AND, it's free. And its your inheritance. God is your Father, petite. He has shown me how to love. He show you love.
Entry: 3:52AM, 03/22/23
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To my... Baby BOY. Yesterday was amazing. We found out your gender. What a surprise. What a gift. I honestly would be happy either way. You are a human being, your are this world's gift. When everyone found out your gender, maybe it was just me, but it felt like the world rejoiced and was in aw (I'm sure it would've either way). A declaration of my child being a son was announced in the earth. The representation of God's masculine energy and Fatherhood will be manifest in your body. Just don't forget feminine complements the masculine. You can't be masculine without feminine to complete it. It's the nature of the universe. Your body will hold the yang, yet the yin will help balance it. You know what this means? The strength of man will be supported by your tender heart. The courage of man will be supported by your compassion. The protectiveness of man will be supported by your peacahility. Your love for self will be complemented by your love and honor of women. Women is the complement to man as man the complement to women. That's how you got here after all. The love and complement between the two birthing life and love. Remember this, remember this.
I love you so much and you have not even been born. I'm looking forward to you being here and growing up and continuing our walk in this earth. You carry all of your ancestors in your body. I pray, you will also carry the family of heaven in your body. The beauty of heaven meeting earth. The key to eternal life. Earth inheriting eternal life. That's been the plan ever since the beginning. We love you.
Entry 4/3/23 8:16pm
To our little first born. Your mom and I love you so much. Sometimes we feel overwhelmed with the newness of it all. We can only trust in God for guidance and encouragement. This will be a transition for us. Our lives feel changed, for the better. This is what we want. Bringing forth children is a gift and a reminder of the circle of life. You will be born and grow just as we have and everyone before us. We pass on our greatest blessings to you. You will inherit our love. God is love.
Entry 5/12/23 10:29pm
Health Tips:
Hello my amazing son. Just thinking of you and some health tips that you might find value in when older. 1. Remmeber the fundamentals of Health. In naturopathic medicine we call them nature cure. We can call them creation curative resemblance. The basics are: clean water, food, air, earth. You're going to live in a time where there's so much technology and man made things to distract you from the simplicity of creation. Remmeber that your Father created everything for you. And you have everything in Christ, since he is the preeminence of all things. Christ is a semblance of what Your Father thinks of you. Live out who you are in Christ. Enjoy fresh food, air, water, earth unde your feet or in your hands (yes, play in the earth (mud, sand, etc). It's all yours to support you in being rooted in who you are, a son.
5/19/23 11am - sitting in nature after exercise
6/1/23
Good Morning newborn.
Sometimes I consider.. What kind of world are we letting you come into. This is the world founded by the system of death. Everything you see has been a creation of man. Jesus (God Our Father) reclaimed the dominion through his triumphant defeat of death. He has freely given everything to you. He has overcome the world, and in Him so have you.
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8/23/23
Dear Son,
Your mom and I are in love with you. You are the most exciting thing since we've known and fell in love with each other. Our love for God has inspired all this love - you have A LOT of love in store for you. Today we celebrated your birthing season (seems like these due dates are merely a marker of time, rather than an accurate prediction) and we also celebrated the unity of our family, us 3. It feels surreal to me to know you, to be conscious of you, to know you are here but unseen. Even in the womb I feel your presence, even you consciousness. I feel your connection and I trust you feel our connection. At times when I gently place my hand on your mother's womb I can feel you move or kick and your mom will say that that's the first you've moved in a while. I'm curious to know that if our connection is already really that strong.. It's possible, I've just never felt anything like it... Of course, one could say it's all in my head. But intuition has her secrets that are later more fully revealed in time. The potential for connection will be revealed manifest more in full as you grow. I know you are not me, but I know I'm some profound ways you will be there one with me (in our thoughts, in our desires, in our love - I want to give you everything I have son).
The most important thing I have in my possession is the eternal life of YHVH. I'm so happy that one day to show you The Father. I may not be able to get everything right, but I pray with all my mind, soul, and heart that you see The Father in me, and in yourself. The most important thing to me is passing this on to you. This love that has kept me alive and intact. This preservation of my soul. This anchor of truth. This Love of The Father.
Okay I've rambled on enough for now. Looking forward to seeing you and holding you soon.
-Thomas Patscal Cordon
To my Born Child who has come into the world
Hey Theo,
It's been almost a month since you were born. This has been a tiring month for all of us, even for you.Because your mom had sepsis after your birth (GBS systemic infection) we unanimously decided to give you IV antibiotics the day you were born. This was a heartbreaking decision, but we valued your life above all and did not want to risk a worse outcome. Everything was fine after then. We have been focusing on rebuilding your microbiota with probiotics. At 3 weeks we did your frenectomy. That was painful to see. And then the exercises after that for 6 weeks was more pain. But I'm thankful for the God of all comfort that comforts us in all of our afflictions. Mental, physical, emotional, anything we feel he feels. I was reminded of this seeing you in pain. Our parents feel for us, they really do. We trust everything is in the Lords hands. We love you. May Light and Life be your guide always.
Sept 25, 2023
Hey Theo,
I don't care what you do or where you go in life. I just want you to know that God is enough for you and that means you are enough for him. Your parents love you so much, but the love that will sustain you is Heaven's love. And when this love unites into your earthen body it will bear the greatest fruit, an earthen human living eternal with the only eternal God.
https://youtu.be/M11PBJbFApw?si=OAlBMnbEV9-5AA
Just tell God you need him
https://youtu.be/CDpY-2M5dVo?si=4zun1adcWAQagZFg
1 Thesalonians 4 (the faith translation)
13 But I would not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those whose (bodies are) asleep (in the grave but are alive with Christ), so that you do not sorrow, like others who have no hope (without Christ in the world).
14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so those also whose (bodies) sleep (in the grave but are alive) in Jesus will God bring with Him.
15 For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain (in the body) until the coming of the Lord will not prevent those who are (present with the Lord but absent from the body) asleep (in the grave).
16 For the Lord Jesus Himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise (from the grave) first:
17 Then we which are alive and remain (in the body) shall (be changed in the twinkling of an eye and) be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so, shall we ever be with the Lord (for all the ages to come).
18 Therefore (let us) comfort one another with these words.
12_2_23
Since the time of your birth you have not ceased to amaze me. You've served as a daily reminder if the gift of Life that truly comes from above. I love you son.
https://youtu.be/pwCQhpgRHWA?si=-ozJHhIi3Q0cP410
Enjoy the Lord with all your strength, mind, and soul. He's your Father.
"you've never beeb wrong.. There's nothing else I'll ever need.. "
Things to know:
Let God (the divine ones) be number one in your life. Their love is consuming and you are enough for them. Jesus is the revelation of God's heart for you. God is one and yes, they are one. There is the counsel of God, and they are one.
Your mom and I love you more than any other person in this world. When you meet your partner/spouse, you will transition into another kind of love and leave ours. Still, God is one and above all. Stay focused on the love you freely have in Christ. Be one in that love with your bride.
Be kind to your family, both sides (Prince and Cordon), show them the love you've been shown by God.
Your first name is a reminder that God is a gift giver. Grace is the gift of God (not the only gift but a prominent gift). Let your life be powered by this grace, in love. Your middle name is Molaire, like your grandpa, my dad. Your grandpa is amazing. He brought his family from Haiti to the United States. He pastored a church most of his life. I have so many memories of growing up in that church. So many prayers and love from them all. It was like a mini Haitian village. Your grandpa was like the president. He, my dad, loved me so much. Had compassion on me - I was a crybaby when I was little. Scared easily sometimes. My dad, your grandpa, was always there for me. Molaire, means molar, like the tooth. It's essential in grinding and processing food. Your name is a statement: Process what the gift of God means! Chew on it, meditate on it, dwell on it, the rest of your life! And dont forget to share it!
Greg Henry and Gospel Revolution Church is your closest church family. I've gone through a number of teachings and doctrines and the one they fellowship around is the closest to the heart of your Father. They've gone into the deep water of grace. You're invited. Come as you are. God will always welcome you with open arms.
The Hesler's are like family, they did a lot for me and your mom.
Lastly, do whatever you want in life, just go with the Lord in confidence that your are safe no matter what. You can not lose. Jesus is your covering and your reward.
I would love to read this all to you someday! Looking forward to growing with you, son.
1-4-24
Hey son. I look forward to sharing this passion for jesus with you. It feels like the greatest gift I can pass on is this gift of faith. God has done so much for me and I'm excited for Him to be your God too. I love you son and believe this is the best thing for you. If there was anything better, I'd find it.
